I am the type of person who likes to know what is going to happen. I like to have multiple plans that will get me to where I feel like I need to be just in case one doesn't end up working. These contingency plans give me a sense of balance, a sense of control. But i realized that sometimes you have to give up your control. You have to take a step back and just let things happen organically, and know that eventually everything will be okay. I've had this epiphany at a time when I really needed it, with the help of my good friend, who's wisdom and patience I have come to rely on and appreciate more than she will ever know. And while I don't necessarily believe in the organization of religion, I do believe in God. I know that when you feel like your life is out of your control, rather than trying desperately to regain that sense of balance, that you just have to let it go, and know and trust that He will always be there to hold your hand and guide you to the path that you need to be at.
I am learning to let go.